My Nirvana

An Enlightenment to a yuga of darkness

This Samadhi happened somewhere at the end of 2012 and every other incident that happened or will happen in my life will fade to the most exalted happiness and joy that I experienced in this state of bliss and which made me to the likes of masters like Buddha, Christ, Ramana Maharshi or Sreeramakrishna Paramahamsa. In my understanding all these years it remained as an individual experience of Kundalini awakening unable to find common grounds with the society; an experience which made me just a Jiwanmukta and all these years in isolation brought me to a spiritual depth as in the case of spirituality where man finds his roots and truths deep within without any interactions triggered by teachings and finds it by himself through silence. I have learned bigger truths and the relationship of my existence with the world around me and my objective in life is the creation of a new knowledge society based on the yogic system.

This happened when I was 22 and I was already inclined towards spirituality with a little bit of meditation, reading, and talks on mysticism and the unknown. I founded delight in talks that lead to the truth of existence and metaphysics and was a stern believer in god but on an agnostic note as I was not a witness to god yet and the modern web of this world makes us doubt about the existence of god or our soul and in no way makes those beliefs mainstream in the society. I, fortunately, had the good habit of using marijuana and meditating on the unknown and even with my friends, I used to isolate myself and indulge in the bliss of meditation that marijuana gave me rather than indulging in it for recreation. I was going through a breakup in life and my career was dwindling. A friend from Coffee Day advised me to put the pain, separation and insecurity in life on my meditative path and meditate the way out.

It was a regular day and I was in my pain of separation and went to a chettayees house where he gave me the weed to smoke on. I was a pain in their ass as there was no way to avoid me and I was new to the circle and was contributing nothing to the gang and was broken as fuck with no job at hand. Now we rolled a joint and smoked and I was first listening to the music when suddenly the electricity went off. Now it was all hot inside the room but the marijuana made me feel my soul rather than my body and I was in search of answers to the problems I was facing at that time and I was in the chettayees bed in the reclining Buddha posture. The weed really made me sacred and I thought to be everything with just the functioning of the mind remaining and I was avoiding the chatter of the mind and trying to find peace. Suddenly there was a rush of an internal potency unknown to me and the energy rushed when the electricity came; from my Mooladhara it gushed and reached my heart to become Airavata the king of elephants which is the mount of Indra. It rested there for a moment and again rushed upwards and pierced open the top of my skull and there was a union of Shiva and Shakti; The Shakti who rests as the world bewildering Kundalini serpent united in my Sahasrara with shiva; my consciousness was outside my body and yet I was alive in my body as prana; then a black Ganapathi came on top of my head who was nude and was a feeling of cleansing. Then everything vanished and the Bindu that I was entered back into my skull. I was awestruck by the experience and my joy was inconceivable to my body. I had become and known Siva with my consciousness and I was Siva by my Jiva. For many years I believed the experience to be accidental and was unable to determine the effect or seriousness of the experience to myself or to the world and was ashamed in saying I was special in any way. Years later I realized what happened was Nirwana and all my bondage to this world was cut loose. Then a lot of dogs started happening in life and following them I reached Kailasa like Yuddhishtira Maharaja from Mahabharata. Years later I realized the Maha Nirwana would be my death where I would reach the mountain that echoes Rudra.

Now this spiritual experience that happened with me was not an isolated incident and later I knew that my story was the story of this yuga for I have released DhoomaKetu The Ganapathi for Kali-yuga through my Nirwana. Now someone asked me about the nature of my spirituality and I replied it was religious because apart from knowing the formless state of god I also had experiences of the forms as Airavata and Ganapathy which was completely Hinduistic in nature. So still the forms of god that I believe are Hindu in nature. Even though the world is breaking my view and putting barricades on my path I believe one day I will succeed and live a life that is worth my stature in this world.