An epiphany and a Trip

The year was 2005; I was enrolled for my higher secondary education in St. Mary’s school, pattom. Initially I wanted to take up science stream but couldn’t make it in my first enrolment because I was a spoiled brat back in 10^th and my marks were terribly low; even this admission into the commerce stream was because my dad was an Ex-politician and he was in much good terms with the party leaders that time and also the local MLA happened to be a close associate of my dad in his time of active politics. Now the initial plan was to take commerce and then shift to science, but I eventually gave up that plan because I thought I was not worth it to take science because I screwed it up in my boards and then I met this wonderful gang of juveniles in my first days of senior secondary education and I thought why not this class.

Now times went swiftly and everything was happening so quick except for the studies part which I was taking so lightly. I never had a clue what the teachers were doing in the class and I still remember I had to take my 11^th books to study for my 12^th exams since I had skipped all the basics from there, but fortunately I didn’t screw it up like my 10^th boards.

Time passed by and we made an excellent gang of friends in 11^th and I liked the fact that most of them were straightforward. Then it was time for our school excursion; I forgot how much was the excursion fee but it seemed to be interesting as it was for some 5-6 days and we were covering many places. I am not clear about every place now but we were covering through Mysore, Nandi Hills, a beach, and Kodaikanal. I had never travelled this far to places apart from my family and I was so excited and thrilled. Travelling is something I would never miss in my life; just gazing out of the window of a bus and seeing all those shops, homes, railway crossings, bill boards; I have always felt in like an alien land and how much you make me travel it won’t me much for me.

So what happened was it was time for everybody to register their names for the excursion and I did it after all our friends agreed to join but what happened was they ditched me and said they would join the next year’s excursion when it’s the right time and when we all will be in 12^th. But I didn’t mind going out with seniors and I felt a little neglected but never mind I was setting in for a long journey and it was all that mattered.

Unlike my brother who had a boarding school experience I was totally dependent on my home for every chore. So I remember my mom packing all my bags for the excursion and dad giving me the money to enjoy the trip. So now I was all ready and my dad escorted me to the school from where the bus was deporting. Now I was a total stranger apart from some 11^th students who were taking the trip. I remember making some good friendships with the senior chetans and chechis who were mostly hitting on each other the entire trip and I was enjoying the whole show. I knew it was all butterfly stomachs around me and I helped as much as I could to unite them. I plotted plans for my senior chettans and may call a chechi to talk with them or would pass some message and I would also listen to what they had to say about different things and about life in general and many other stuffs. We entered a garden were I saw them drawing names of each other on leaves and tree barks it all felt so good but I was missing somebody to do all those stuffs with.

So it was going amazing but when I think about that trip now I remember something striking right now. I usually don’t sleep when I am travelling, I just sight see; but somehow my eyes were heavy  and I slept just before the start of the climb to Kodaikkanal which is a very famous Hill station in south India. Now if I am right I was besides somebody I don’t remember that somebody but in my memory it is registered as a chechi when it is not possible because boys and girls were supposed to not sit together. But I remember When I woke up we were in a high latitude and I was feeling my ears were so numb. It was not about the numb part that puzzled me; my ears were feeling extremely large like of an elephant’s ear. I was completely shocked and I thought that my ears would fall off or it’s not going to recover and I was afraid to talk about it to somebody and I felt totally alone there for a moment; but fortunately nothing like that happened and I was back to my senses in 10 minutes and I remember eating strawberries or corn once we reached Kodaikkanal.

The destiny of Adam the first man

Recently I’ve been doing Tarot reading and found it quite amazing and interesting to venture into the world of possibilities of divination in forecasting the possibilities of humans and the divine alike. My readings are purely based on personal intuitions which are proving resourceful after my ventures in the realms of spirits which I started many years ago. I believe I can communicate with the departed souls and divine beings like angels and other messengers and to some extent the almighty himself who lights up my path in my prophecies. The ability to prophesize is a gift very few holds and I believe I am one of the few gifted.  

Rather than having the western adaptation of cards I hold the Sacred Indian Tarot which features images inspired from Indian myths which I am more familiar with. It consists of 24 cards of the major arcana as I am specializing on doing major readings only.

Today I did a card reading to find out the destiny of Adam and it came out quite amazing to me. It was a 3 card reading; the first I took was in connection with Adam and Eden from where he was banished; the second card was in connection to the serpent of which caused the fall and the third card was about his future or destiny.  

The fall from Eden
The card : Death/Yama
Reading : The card’s symbolism was Yama and death, In Hinduism Earth is regarded as mrityu loka ie. the world of death and misery and Adam was put in this world for his non adherence to the commandment of god to avoid eating the fruit from the forbidden tree. Yama is considered the punisher in Hinduism and he gives punishment to those who have sinned after death and naturally God acted as Yama in punishment to Adam in violation of his law in the garden of Eden and we come to the conclusion that the commandment of God, which was the law of Eden; breaking it was the reason behind the fall of Adam from the garden of Eden.

The Serpent
The card : Judgement/Jyothi
Here I had a divination; I saw the moon and a white snake which might not be the evil serpent that made Adam sin. There are many instances of fall of divine beings in Hindu puranas for getting cursed by some rishi, muni or devata. Since I saw the moon I am sharing Chandra’s story. Ganesha the eldest son of Shiva was made fun of by Chandra deva for being ugly and he was cursed to lose his aura and charm. Understanding his mistake Chandra worshiped Shiva and gained back his lost charm and aura and it is believed the place where he did his tapas is where the Somnath temple stands right now.
On my second divination for this card I saw an orange fruit and somehow it was linked to psychology and Shiva’s second son Skanda. I believe we are made allured by our minds and that is exactly what the serpent did. This job is now beautifully done by whom who study psychology and they make us with logical reasoning to move away from the powers of God. Modern psychology in general doesn’t accept God in its line of studies and wholly rely on the disambiguation of the brain and states it as the reason of all modern mental medical ailments. So I prophecies that Shanmugha will come in and destroy all conventional concepts of psychology. Or he might destroy the nil-philosophy of gross materialism.

Adam’s Destiny
The card : Justice/Nyaya
Adam and his descendants have only one destiny left and that is to pass through the gates of heaven or perish in hell for eternity. Since the banishment took place because of the breaking of law in heaven, the only way back to heaven from here is by listening to the lord’s commandments and asking his mercy in the day of the lord to find their place in heaven.

Love 2.0

Emotions are pretty hard to explain and love of them all is the most abstract. Why do we love? Maybe an absence may be more logical in terms for the machines to explain; nonetheless to speak about it’s always about sacrifices. Love personally has been so excruciating from my part; something for which I’ve been paying bills until now.

Love doesn’t limit with people; it’s universal; we may love flora, fauna, communities, ideologies, our nation, different ethnicities, money, fame, religion, freedom, wealth, food and many more things the list might be endless. Love’s antonym hate I believe is not as natural as our feeling of Love, it’s part of conditioning and most of the time induced as disgust for a particular person, a type of incident or even to things that makes us uncomfortable or angry.

The biggest asset of a nation could be the love of the citizens towards it and a cooperation built on national understanding and constant efforts to usher in prosperity and peace; the word patriotism is nothing but love towards matr Bhoomi; artists, poets and writers outpour with words in describing her serenity and beauty, they compose, art forms, stories and fables in describing her heroes; heroes who diligently saved her from time to time from people who were less with the emotion of love and everytime we hear to them we feel proud and blessed to have been born here and our hair and head stand tall in the highest degree of patriotic expression possible.

Personally love is more complicated, our love should first stand for our ideologies and a man without high ideologies is no better than the lowliest of animals. As we live in democracies, our duty as fellow citizens is to have a high degree of political ideology and its absence may lead to high levels of corruption and other evils in the society.

All Religious orders are here to act God’s will and love won’t be the apt word when we have to discuss religion, borrowing a word from Christianity love is Agape in religions; it’s the most unconditional love outpouring from the almighty and it cannot be discussed in detail because it is alien to our flesh and we get only its spurts when in devotion or in deep meditation. It’s the cause of all causes; its order, courage, valour and unblemished; it’s simply the lack of this understanding that makes people move away from religion.

The best time to start love is in your teens and in my opinion people should get committed by then to start a lifelong understanding of each other and explore the world and its endless possibilities and mysteries.

So in short not so flowery words love is the basic thread that connects everything pristine and virtuous in this world.